Some Updates...

Because I haven't posted on here in quite a while. D=

- Ines went back home like... 3 weeks ago? It seems like forever... I miss her terribly. I got a postcard from her today. It unfolded to spell out 'I Love You' in those amazing German gummy bears... Yum. =) She promised me she'd send some soon... so I need to get a Frito Pie package together for her. Starting the International Chile-Gummy Bear Exchange. Haha. ICGBE. How would you even pronounce that?

- School is boring. It's gotten a bit more exciting since I'm in art now, and we're working on a project in Adobe Illustrator which is pretty fun, although I must say I really don't like having to draw with the mouse. I miss my tablet. (Which reminds me, I still need to draw Ines a picture. I told her Single's Awareness Day, but I think at my rate, we're shooting for Easter.) My college english course finally started up, so that's got me busy as well.

- TRACKSTARTSINLESSTHANAMONTH. Which is exciting, because -sneezes- it means my jump training will slow down. It's not that it's too hard to do.. it's just.. repetitive. And I want out of the weight room. Which, today was awesome because we got to go out and run. An 800, 600, 400, 200, 100. And either All the jump training sped me up, or the other girls were not going as fast as they could've. And I don't think I was going that fast.. But it was great to stretch my legs instead of hopping on them for once. I've got a good feeling about this year.

- Kinda stressing about club ball. I want to play in the tournaments, but in my current situation, that's totally not happening. I'm just working out... but I want to play dangit. I don't know how.. but I'm hoping something falls together where I'm getting to play in some tournaments.

Aaaand.. That's all that I can remember. Other than my current detest for the majority of the male species. Except a select few. LoL. OH YEAH. And it took me like.. 50 guys (Ok... 3 really) but I FINALLY found someone who isn't busy the night of prom. Huzzah! So now.. I've gotta find a dress... exciting.

Music

Loving this song currently, White Horse by Taylor Swift. I think it kinda fits a bit. =P


Say you're sorry; that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'CauseI honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl I should have known,
I should have known

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse, to come around.

Baby I was naïve, got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake i didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand.

I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings; Now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse, to come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess, this aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror, Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.

I've a Love, a True, True Love...

Just jokes. I'm now closing in on 48 hours of being single... and I've gone from tears, to the numb hardened shell over my heart signaling the end of caring. I'm over it, over him.

Mom thinks he'll be back. He always disappears after I leave him. He'll be back, she just doesn't know if he'll be damaged or not.

And if he does come back, I'm not sure I'll let him back in. He's had two shots at perfection. Everyone deserves a second chance. But would he deserve a third chance to rip my heart open again?

As of now... No. The pain hurts. And this has happened twice now. Each time it feels like a lion raking it's claws into the tender tissue of my heart. As the wounds heal, they grow tougher, so it doesn't happen again.

But for today, I am proud to say that I am strong. I don't stay out for the count, but I bounce back quickly. I'm over what happened two days ago, and I'm over him.

These lyrics have been stuck in my head like.... all day.

Over You - Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.'

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.